Patience is a virtue

I realized I needed to put up the last blog of the month. So here I am. Today I took two exams, I think I did decently. On the Philosophy exam at least. haha.

My mind has been wandering a lot this evening. Which is a major bummer because I'm trying to catch up on my History of England to 1688 reading so I can write a paper that is due this coming Tuesday.

I've just been thinking a lot about everything. I hate when I'm reading, writing or just plain listening and my ears are listening, but my brain checks out. I really need to learn how to pay more attention and stop worrying about everything. I have a God who has a plan for my life, and in no way can I change His plan. I may think I'm making those decision according to my own free will, but nope, God is using those for His will.

Sometimes I wish I could just pick God's brain about the things that happen in my life and others'. Like what were You thinking when You allowed this to happen. Why did You decide for me to make that decision. Although, at the same time I do not want to know, I just want to be obedient and accept the things that happen.

I find myself most struggling with impatience. I have a really hard time being patient, I want everything to happen now. But again, God is in control of that as well, and I know He has my best interests at heart. I pray that the Lord helps me achieve greater patience because I cannot do this alone.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

I hope you all enjoyed Blog Every Day September, good day. :]

Focus Achieved

I got this random burst of focus today. I got home and got straight to work on studying for the Philosophy and American Government exams I have tomorrow. I thought it was rather peculiar, but I'm actually really excited about it. I hope that this continues, I have two papers due next week and it would be nice to continue having this focus and determination to get things done.

I mean part of me didn't even want to blog right now because I didn't want to lose it. But I'm thinking that's not going to happen considering how quickly I am typing this out.My fingers are literally going to fast for my mind and I keep having to go back and rewrite words because they're spelled incorrectly, and we cannot have that on here.

I think it also helped for me to ignore my computer and phone unless absolutely necessary. My phone is currently plugged into the wall so there isn't easy access to it. And my lap top was on my desk, but I needed to access a power point for some answers to government questions. But I think as soon as I finish this blog it may go back. I'm not positive though because I want to continue listening to music.

My phone was providing earlier, but it died. But at the same time I want to shut it off so I can focus and also so I can save my Spotify hours. I feel like I'm going to get cut off soon, and then I'll only have the music I bothered to pay for. haha.

Also, I just realized tomorrow is the last day of Blog Every Day September. I'm kind of relieved. Only because I've kind of run out of topics to talk about, and I'm sure those of you who actually read this are sick of me complaining about everything. Woo. haha.

Whistle while you, nah

I've felt really busy lately, but I feel like I haven't done anything. At least it seems like nothing to me. I know that I've done a lot, but I don't think it's registering in my mind as work. I feel like things are kind of a mess right now. There's a lot I need to do within the next week. I feel like there is so much going on that I don't have enough time to finish it all.

Let's take a look at my forever growing To Do List for the next week or so, shall we?

-Study for Intro to Philosophy exam
-Study for American Government exam
-Catch up on reading for History of England to 1688
-Do reading for Communication Theory
-Take quiz for Communication Theory
-Write blurb for Technological Dependence spread
-Keep up to date with Facebook and Twitter for Internship
-Make sure web is running properly for paper.
-Meet with potential new additions for the web team
-Video Meeting
-Web Meeting
-Write paper for American Government
-Write paper for History of England to 1688
-Clean room
-Clean bathroom
-Wash/clean car
-Breakfast with Lauren (Saturday)

This is all I can come up with off the top of my head, but I'm almost positive there's more. I think I'm starting to feel the stress. Welcome back to school Sharayah. Buck up, be a woman, and do work.

-O-O- <---glasses

I didn't go to school today because of my eye appointment. (Yup, I'm going to have some snazzy glasses soon, maybe I'll wear them more). Usually I get really upset about missing school, but I think it was good for me. I've been a tad stressed lately about school and it was cool to not have to worry about getting to class and having my reading done. I even took a nap, which will probably not serve me well when I try to go to sleep later tonight. However, I enjoyed it at the time, so it's all good. haha.

I was really happy about my appointment, even though I originally was a little upset about not having enough contacts to reach to the appointment. Especially the end of last week when my right eye was not having the contacts. I figured this was because the lenses were getting older and I'm suppose to change them every month. When the optometrist tested my eyes today, she said I had an irritation in my right eye and that I was not allowed to wear the trial lenses she gave me until next Monday.

This unfortunately means I have to wear my lame prescription I currently have, until then. BUT, I will have new contacts AND glasses within the next two weeks or less, which is really exciting. I'm so over my current pair mostly because I'm rather blind. But I think the ones I picked out were really nice, although I cannot be trusted because I picked them half blindly. I'm sure the people there thought I was considering I was inches away from the mirror each time I tried a new pair. It was embarrassing, but I bet all of them were used to it. I cannot be the only one with eyes so bad. haha.

Almost there!

I've been getting really excited about reading my Bible. Seeing as soon this will be the first time I've ever gotten all the way through. I finished the Old Testament a couple days ago. And I've been really enjoying it. You know finding out things I wasn't aware of and getting more in-depth on all those stories I thought I knew pretty well from Sunday school.

I'm glad I'm finally doing this. I should've done it awhile ago, but I feel like this is the right time. This was God's plan for me, and I just fall more and more in love with my creator every day. It's really given me a whole new perspective on what I believe and it's refreshing.

I really stoked to finish it, and then go back and study it even more in-depth. Right now I'm doing a bit of just a read through, but I excited to learn more and just continue shaping my faith. It's just too cool.

Our God truly is an awesome God. :]

Ugh... reading

I don't know what it is with all this reading. I guess because I've mostly taken journalism courses and I don't feel that they are very heavy with reading. It's more hands on and experiences. And the fact that I took all general education courses except one gives me so much reading. I'm trying to balance it with everything else, but it's proving difficult.

I did get some reading done though. There was lots of productivity on History of England to 1688. It wasn't much, but it's more than normal. I did get my assignments for Ethics done though, so I count that as productivity as well. I do still have to study for American Government and Philosophy, but the test isn't until Friday, so I have time!

And I've kind of been doing the whole judging what I need to read by what's going on, rather than just reading it all. #horriblestudent

Well, back to reading for England.

Wait For Me

Thursday night I went to a SHE event at my church with my mother. It was a very uplifting, inspiring and reassuring night. Rebecca St. James, Evie Karlsson and For KING and Country performed and shared about purity and being a faithful woman of God.

I myself have already vowed my purity to God and my future husband. And I really liked the message they gave because I feel like being a virgin this day in age is not something to be ashamed. It's more to be praised. And I believe your virginity is such a precious gift for your future spouse.

I liked the reassurance that my future husband is out there. I really enjoyed Rebecca St. James' song 'Wait For Me'. It was a beautiful song I now hold to dear. She wrote the song for her future husband who is now "her Jacob", she was married 5 months ago, and shared with us how worth it, it is to wait until marriage.

I also enjoyed hearing from For KING and Country, as they shared from a male perspective of how a man should treat a lady. And how we should wait for our "Holy Hunk". It was so touching to hear from a man that we should be treated like princesses and we shouldn't be in unhealthy relationships in which we are treated anything less. There is a man out there for all of us and he doesn't deserve us unless he cherishes us.

Now as a college student I do my best to keep focused on my studies and not obsess over boys like I did in high school. Which has worked for me so far, Praise the Lord. Now this doesn't mean that I completely ignore boys, rather I look to make sure my priorities in check. God comes first, family, studies, friends and then after needs to be looked over, but isn't necessarily as important as the formers.

However, if my future husband is reading this now or some day soon, know I pray you and I will find one another when God permits it. He has a plan for us and I cannot wait to see it unfold with you. I pray you keep Him at the forefront of your life and that you are waiting for me as I am waiting for you. Until that beautiful day. <3

Dang I missed it...

I'm not even sure if this blog is up in time. I'm so sorry I didn't post yesterday. We had work night and I didn't get home until right before midnight and when I realized it was too late, so I just decided to forget about it. I hope you all don't hate me because I failed.

It happens though. And all I can do is press forward, so for the remainder of this month I will try to give you all more quality blogs.

Starting tomorrow because I really need to get some sleep. Hopefully no sleep talking...

1, 2, 3, 4 ...

I exercised today. And when I say exercise I pretty much was walking in place for 30 minutes while reading my American Government book.

However, toward the end, I kind of got distracted. I put on some music. I've been really into Owl City the last couple of days. Then I grabbed my scarf off my chair and might have danced around. I think I liked the latter half better. It was just a lot of fun.

I'm planning to hopefully keep this up every day for I don't know how long. But, I feel like it's a step in the right direction, because I can study and exercise. Since I've been pretty much just studying. And that hurts my brain, which is no bueno.

I got my car back today, which is exciting because I don't have to be driven around anymore like I was in high school. Which is beautiful. Tomorrow night is production night, and I'm really looking forward to it because I can stay because I have a car! Yay me!

Other than that, I thought today went splendidly. :]

Just for a second

I keep learning that my bed is the worst place to do homework because of its warmth and comfort, I tend to fall asleep. And then I don't get to be exactly where I want to be homework-wise by the end of the night. I think I'm okay where I'm at right now. I at least finished half of my readings and took my Com Theory Quiz. I got 4.5/ 5 I hate that I missed one. haha. But hey, it happens.

I have some reading for History of England next. It's a lot of reading because I didn't have time to read last week. My birthday kind of got in the way and I didn't really do any reading because I got distracted. And I didn't do anything over the weekend except read for Philosophy. Which put me ahead because I don't have to do any reading till this coming weekend for it.

I do however, need to read for American Government and Ethics as well. What I'm finding curious is that all of my Philosophy, Com Theory and Ethics readings are starting to overlap, they seem to be connected in the ways of Philosophy. Which helps me out because it will become drilled in my mind, yay!

I took on a lot of reading heavy classes this semester. That was something I didn't take into consideration. Although, I am quite grateful there hasn't been too much work aside from reading. I've been assigned a paper for Government and a case study for Ethics. Which is no big deal. I got this. :]

That darn car

When I was younger I always dreamt of having a lime green Volkswagon Beetle. I thought that was the cutest car ever and I wanted it. My junior year of high school I obtained a driver's license and for Christmas I got that exact car.

Goober, I called it. And a goober it really is. I've had a plethora of problems with it over the four years I've owned it. I feel like every couple of months there's something else going wrong with it. About two weeks ago we had problems and paid to have it fixed. But yesterday, something happened to it again. I don't know exactly what, but dad says I cannot drive it.

This is really frustrating seeing as I'm a commuter student. I'll unfortunately be having my mother drive me to and from school until it gets fixed because I cannot borrow her rental doesn't have me on the contract. Her car is in the shop as well.

It's been on my mind lately that I should just get a new used car, because I feel like we keep having to pay more and more to have it fixed. But then I fear that I won't be able to do all the cool things I was planning to do this year. Like go to England. :/

I don't really know what to do about it, we'll see after tomorrow, maybe. Hopefully, my car will be seen tomorrow. #lesigh

Stuff needs to get done

So I'm finding that getting a passport is a lot harder than I thought. Every time I think I'm getting closer to putting the paperwork in, something else happens. I finally have all the paperwork I need, but apparently they don't take people unless they have an appointment on Saturdays. Lame.

I really didn't get a whole lot of work done today. I had planned to get all my reading done, but I haven't touched a single book. I did however, write a To Do List. Nothing has been crossed off though, unfortunately. I have to keep focused though. Everything needs to get done. There is so much going on that needs my attention, and I don't want to get overwhelmed.

I've been hanging with my brother today. I find it weird, but it seems that my brother and I get along a lot better when my parents are gone. I have no idea why. I wish we did, but eh, it happens I suppose.

Also, Natalie is here tonight. I love when Natalie comes over, we always have such fun!

OH! And Pride and Prejudice was SOOOOO GOOD! It's playing at South Coast Repertory! GO SEE IT! I recommend! HIGHLY!!! :D

Just SO excited!

I have to blog REALLY early today because I know that I won't be able to later because I'm sure I'll be home after midnight because I'm going to see PRIDE AND PREJUDICE with Peter! So excited. And it will probably be short too because the red velvet birthday cake is in our fridge and it keeps speaking to me. "Eat me Sharayah, happy birthday to you!" haha. XD

I was suppose to go turn in passport paperwork, but unfortunately the passport office is ALREADY closed. Which I don't understand seeing as the post office doesn't close until 5 p.m. Lame, but it's okay because it's open tomorrow too. Thankfully. I need to get that working so I can look into booking a flight to.... ENGLAND! I'm probably going over spring break. I'm crossing my fingers at least. Each step forward is making more and more excited.

I'm also going to Orlando, FL at the end of next month for a journalism conference. Unfortunately, it's during midterms so I'm going have to keep on task and study really hard the next month and a half so I can excel in the time I will miss. I'm really excited though because we are MOST DEFINITELY going to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter and I get to see my friends Ryan and Lizzie. Which, Ryan is actually attending the conference as well, so I'm just one ball of excitedness. This year is going really well.

I'm pretty sure I aced my philosophy quiz too. yay! :]

I AM 20

Today is my birthday woo! But you knew that because I blogged about it yesterday. That is unless you didn't read my blog yesterday. haha. Regardless, today is my birthday.

I find it funny having a Facebook on birthdays, because I have gone and changed a few of my friend's birthdays on their profiles before. And the thing about Facebook is it tells you when it's someone's birthday. And most of the people who wish you a happy birthday only knew because Facebook told them.

What's even worse, is if someone hacks your profile and one of your close friends wishes you a happy birthday. It's like hey you should know that.

But I promise. Today is my birthday. So feel free to show me some love. haha. :]

I'm an adult

Tomorrow is my birthday. I will be turning 20. The big 2-0. My parents keep telling me I'm an old lady now.

It's weird because I don't feel old, but at the same time I do. I've lived through two decades. I remember pogs, pokemon cards, volunteering to be the yellow power ranger because all the girls always wanted to be the pink, not having a cell phone when I was five, not knowing curse words existed until middle school, being free and not having a care in the world.

But now I have things to worry about like getting myself up in the morning, finding something acceptable in the fridge for breakfast and lunch, going to school, doing my homework without my mother telling me to, working and getting paid so I can put gas in my car, etc.

There's not much that happens when you turn twenty. 19 and 20 are like those awkward ages between the cool 18 and 21 birthdays. Because everyone knows that 18 and 21 are the best birthdays, right? You get so much responsibility.

But I see tomorrow as not having teen at the end of my age. I will be twen-ty. That means I'm an adult, right?

It's the little things

I purchased a lamp at Target yesterday because the ceiling fan in my room doesn't provide enough light and it makes it harder to see anything other than my Macbook when it gets later in the night.

I'm rather careful with how I spend my money seeing as I'm a commuting college student. I like to keep everything in check and every so often I won't do things that will cost me. Gas is expensive guys. haha.

When I do spend my money it's usually on the essentials, in yesterday's case a lamp. Now I didn't need the lamp per say, but my desk is now lit up. And I find my desk more comforting to sit and study at than laying across my comfortable, warm bed curled up with a textbook. Considering I usually pass out within five minutes of my head hitting the books.

Now these purchases of the essentials make me feel more of an adult. You know, not having to rely so much on my parents, rather I'm fending for myself. At least as much as I can considering I live in my parents house and they don't charge me rent. Praise the Lord.

I think what I'm trying to get at is it's the little things that make me happy. haha. Bet you didn't see that one coming.

Are these blogs getting lamer as the days are going?

It's not 11 p.m.

Peter just told me I have to blog before 11 p.m. tonight. I'M HERE! haha.

I feel like I was all over the place today. I woke up late, which I've been doing the last couple of days. My ideal time I want to be able to consistently wake up this year is 6:30 a.m. Considering I don't have class until 10 a.m. on MWF and 11 a.m. on TR, you probably think I'm nuts. But I'm not. Ideally, I would like to wake up at 6:30 a.m., have my quiet time, do some exercising, eat breakfast, get ready for school and be out of the house by the necessary time.

I'm doing my best to get to this, but I've been having a bit of difficulty getting there. I'm a night owl and I feel best later in the night, but that results in not being a morning person and wanting to catch up on said sleep I missed the night before. I mean I set my alarm for 6:30 a.m. every night for the next morning. However, snooze usually gets pushed until 7:30/8 a.m.

Kudos for trying? Okay maybe not. I agree, I'm lame. I tried putting my phone across the room, but that just results in me stumbling around to turn it off and retreat back to bed. I definitely need to go to bed earlier, I feel like that should help. I thought I had started it last week and was going to succeed, but then I went to bed late one night and messed it up.

So going back to me waking up late, I missed a breakfast date with The Banner staff, which Neil is not going to let me forget because he's mean. haha. Went to Philosophy, ate lunch and did some American Government homework during my break, went to Ethics, sat in on Banner but did American Government homework, went to American Government, bought a lamp at Target, made a video for BacheloretteBrigade, put clothes away, ate dinner with the family, attempted Communication Theory reading, fell asleep, attempted ComTheory reading again, and was then forced to write a blog.

I think it's great that I can recall of that. I have such a good memory. haha. My lamp is providing good light. I wish it was a little brighter, but it's better than the nothingness that my ceiling fan provides. Aside from all of this I've been in a really good mood. The smile on my face has yet to disappear. :D

Blog time, not on time

It's kind of lame when you inform your classmates early in the day via introduction that you're blogging every day this month, and then forget until 11 p.m. that night you forgot to blog. Nice going, Sharayah. I think the fact of it not being tomorrow yet, makes this okay. I'm trying to decide whether I should start my day off by blogging, but I already have a lot to then.

I was just doing some Philosophy and American Government homework and listening to the instrumental Tangled soundtrack. Well, I don't know if I would call it homework. It was more I decided I was going to read the introduction and first chapter before class this week since we are suppose to have it read anyway. I don't consider reading homework. It's more necessary for me to learn, I've also been taking notes. These notes being key terms, but notes nonetheless.

I'm striving to have immaculate notes this semester. I want to be extremely organized and prepared, I like schedules. I feel like if I'm organized and prepared I'll do better. My friend, Peter, told me recently my life needs an itinerary. I'm not going to lie to you, I agree. I need to know what I'll be doing when. And that's why I give you my Google Calendar/iCal/ Agenda. As I am equipping myself with these this semester.

I have almost everything down to a T. Which I'm liking. I just need to stick to it, aside from going to class. Class is required, everything is optional. And that needs to change. I can't keep procrastinating until the last minute. I have a lot of coursework heavy classes this semester, and it needs to get done NOW!

[Returns to tackling her American Government reading]

O-O

I've resorted to wearing my glasses on the weekends because my contacts are starting to get to the point where they need to be changed, but I don't have any more and I don't go to the optometrist for another two weeks?

That's REALLY bad. Unfortunately, last month I lost one of my contacts while driving and couldn't find it when I pulled over. Since it was like a week or so before I needed to change my contacts and I only had one pair left, there wasn't a lot I could do. So I had to use my last pair early, and we couldn't get an appointment scheduled right away is sucks because my glasses are extremely out of date because I've been just buying contacts and haven't gotten a new pair in a really long time.

So right now, I'm wearing my glasses, as I have been all day. And I just have to say my vision is already horrible as it is, these glasses aren't really helping. Which stinks, but I kind of have to make do. At least I don't have class on the weekends. That helps a lot. But I feel really blind.

Luckily, I didn't have any plans this weekend. I've also been taking my contacts out as soon as I get home from school during the week. I cannot wait to go to the optometrist. I decided I'm going to only buy half the amount of contacts I normally do and get a new pair of glasses. I'm sure this will make me wear them more, considering the ones I have now fall off my face when I look down.

Just two weeks, two weeks.

No breaks, no mistakes

It can't be Friday night already. I'm really hoping the rest of the year doesn't go by like this. I mean I want to busy, but not this busy. I want to have time to do the things I want to do as well as do the whole school thing. But I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to handle being this busy.

I feel like I did so little today, class at 10, chapel at 11, newspaper stuff from noon to 5 (did I really spend that many hours working on the newspaper? That's just insane), ate dinner 5:30, Nutella cookies from 6:30 to 730, and Big Bang Theory from then till now still.

I don't think that's too much. The newspaper stuff I was working on definitely went quite long. I just couldn't figure out the video editing for the longest time. And in the end I did it another way, but it came out a lot better than I expected.

I don't think I should be complaining. Last week I was complaining about having nothing to do. I cannot now complain because I have all the things in the world to do. That's just not fair. I have to stick it through. I know I can do this, I have my to do lists ready. I've been checking things off one and at time, and even though it's late still getting most of what needs to get done, done. And I find that a great accomplishment.