Lately USA has been airing lots of Crime Dramas such as Law & Order: Special Victim Units/ Criminal Intent and NCIS. Not don't get me wrong, I LOVE watching Crime Dramas. I like to go along with the main characters and try to solve the case. Sometimes I am write and sometimes I am wrong, but in the end they are just Crime Dramas.
And I know that they're just Crime Dramas, but they also make paranoid. I get really paranoid when I am home alone and it gets worse in the evening. I make up so many explanations for the house settling, the dogs barking, the wind blowing and the dogs hitting their tails against the window. When I say explanations, I mean I play scenarios of people breaking in, robbing the place or killing me.
I'm sure this isn't healthy for my sanity. I don't want to be afraid of being home by myself. When my parents are home, especially my dad I feel safe. But this is a fear I need to get over. I mean, I'm two years away from being able to move out of my parent's house. And I don't know how that's going to go down. I could be living with a roommate(s) or by myself, and I don't want to put myself in a position where I don't feel comfortable in my own house.
I'm the type of person who doesn't like to be alone. I like to be surrounded by friends or family. But I need to become a person who is alright with being alone. I mean in some cases I am. These are the times when things need to get done and I do not have time to wait around for someone to come with me.
I also feel that I need to rely more on God in these situations. He is my father, my protector and I need to realize that He has the plan for my life. He has created me in His image. That should give me the comfort to know I can do all things through Him who gives me strength. He can give me the courage to be home alone, all I have to do is cast all my worries on Him and everything will be just fine. :]
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