VidCon 2012

Vidcon in one word. Amazing.

I've been putting off thinking about VidCon, mainly because it's over and I'm not ready to accept that just yet. But then I realized keeping it all locked inside is pretty selfish of myself. However, I just can't get my feelings out. I've tried vlogging about it a few times, but I just can't get the right words.

So here I am, returning to my blog, once again. Hoping that maybe this time it will go somewhere. That maybe I can form the words that I don't know how to verbally say. Written word after all, is my strong point. I'm not blessed with words from the mouth, rather words from my finger tips.

So in short, VidCon was amazing, but really it was so much more.

Although, VidCon is something I countdown the days until, and quite enjoy, it's also a very overwhelming time for me. I am an excruciatingly introverted person, and big groups of people quickly tire me out. VidCon's crowd is always increasing and there were 8,000+ people there this year. And even hanging with the group of friends I've formed from the YouTube, at times has overwhelmed me.

However, this year, I went in with an open mind. One that I hoped to enjoy every bit to the fullest and just come out of my comfort zone. Went to all the panels I could successfully get into, danced and sang my heart out like no one was watching or listening during the concerts and dance parties, took loads of photos :] and no footage :/, had meaningful conversations with good friends and gave as many hugs as people would accept from me. haha.

And as a result, I think that this year, for the first time, I succeeded; well, somewhat. The first night, I did feel a little overwhelmed. But this was mainly because I could not believe that so many people and friends were all in the same place once again.

After having gone so long without seeing and interacting with one another, we were all together again, and it was like nothing had really changed in our absence. The ability to pick right back up where we left off. To be able to welcome new friends into our world, and be able to connect so quickly in the span of two-three days.

It baffles my mind how quickly VidCon can bring people together. I think it's because we realize that we don't have much time with one another, and so we have to cherish it. And live the time we have to the fullest. And although, the goodbyes hurt when they come, we know that we will see one another again, very soon. Whether it be a year from now, or those little wonderful trips we make to one another in between because we just can't stand the distance.

I love YouTube, and the opportunities and friends it has blessed me with. But regardless, of how close the Internet can bring you, I still think that ability to touch and hug a person is just so much more satisfying. And although it can be overwhelming at times, I'm glad I was able to make the most of the time I had. :]

And I reappear

So it's probably bad that I do not recall writing the last blog post I left you all with, especially since after a long hiatus from blogging I just vanished again. Nice going, Sharayah, how are you ever going to captivate an audience if you just leave them high and dry?

I'm happy to report my spring semester went well, passed all my courses, kept my job at OPS and am now the Editor-in-Chief of The Banner newspaper. God has blessed me immensely in the last four months, and I am so thankful.

I am currently on summer break, working my tail off at OPS and preparing for the new road that leads me ahead. (Okay, maybe it's not much of a break, but I am glad I have something to keep me busy through the summer).

There are so many transitions that will be taking place in the next year, and as much as that terrifies me, I also find myself excited beyond belief.

I cannot wait to witness the work that God is going to be doing in my life and in the lives of those around me. I desire for Him to use me in my new found places. And although, I am not entirely sure where He is leading me I wish to follow Him wholeheartedly wherever it is.

And with this coming year being my senior year at CBU, I hope to live it to the fullest. I want to have all the experiences a student at CBU should have. Do all the things I meant to, but never got around to doing.

Be back soon, I promise. <3

One door opens...

I have been away from my blog for far too long. And you all missed me, right? haha. It is okay if you did not.

I can say things seem to be going great. All that hard work paid off last semester, I almost had straight A's. There was one B, which I was perfectly fine with because I just really wanted to pass. So achievement unlocked: I made it out alive and am just a few short days away from tackling the second have of my junior year of university. Which is terrifying as well as thrilling to see all the work I have accumulated over the past 5 semesters paying off.

I in a way lucked out this semester. I am taking 15 units, 3 of which are being taken online, while the rest fall onto only Tuesdays and Thursdays. Which for me is rather odd, because if anything I pictured myself as a Monday, Wednesday, and Friday student seeing as most of the journalism classes take place then. However, this seems like a blessing nonetheless. Less work, right? WRONG.

On top of only taking Tuesday and Thursday classes, I will be working on campus with the Online and Professional Studies department dealing with Search Engine Optimization on Mondays and Fridays, while still attending to all my webmaster duties for the newspaper.

I find this exciting because SEO was exactly what I was wanting to learn in order to hone in on my social networking and media knack. I hope that this will help me later when looking for a job once I graduate, so you can bet I am looking forward to this job.

But I also find it worrisome because I will not be as involved with the newspaper as I would like to be. I want to be more hands on so that I can get to know the new writers and get a feel for who they are as well as their writing styles. I definitely will be coming in as often as I can, but I cannot guarantee it will be like I wish.

I'm hoping this all goes well. I know the Lord has a plan for me. He had been opening plenty of doors for me and I know and am aware that at any moment one of these doors can be just as easily closed. But with having said that I will put my faith in the Lord because He is in control and His plan is the best plan for me. I just pray that He would show me the way and that I would follow it with my whole heart.

Please keep me in pray. Pray that I be confident in the Lord and that He would guide me as to what I shall do in these situations and experiences He has planned for me. That I will continue to grow stronger in my relationship with Him and that I will be strong in my faith and walk.

Thank you and God Bless! :]