How did I manage that?

Oh Reader, I probably don't need to reiterate I'm sick because I mean, no one is actually following this blog yet. And IF you are reading this it's probably because I tweeted about it. Which you as one of my Twitter followers already knew I was sick because I've been complaining about it for the past couple of days...

I do apologize for the constant whining, I feel bad because I hate when others whine and right now I feel like a HUGE hypocrite. It's like 'OKAY! YOU'RE SICK! WE GET IT! GO GET BETTER!', but to be honest I do NOT feel well.

It frightened me as I woke up this morning with little to no voice. Which is something I heavily rely on for most aspects of my life. Video blogger, journalist, singer and extremely talkative person in most situations.

I've lost my voice quite a few times, but it has always faithfully returned. But for some reason this morning, I did not think it would be back. Which then got me thinking irrationally about needing to learn sign language (which lately I've been wanting to do so anyways), and not being able to communicate with others for quite some time. (Please note this is an exaggeration, but I mean, hey! It COULD happen!)

But anyways, I ended up going to see the doctor this morning (Which is excruciatingly shocking, because I mean whenever I make an appointment they always tell me 'What time tomorrow afternoon?' or 'We can fit you in next week.'). I was rather excited about this! 'Yay! I'm going to get answers to what the heck is wrong with me.' 'Yay! Hopefully, I will feel better by this time tomorrow.'

And that's when she tells me I might have strep throat and I cannot go to school today or even tomorrow. The latter was okay because I haven't been getting a whole lot of sleep because of this whole ordeal, but STREP THROAT?! How the heck did I contract STREP THROAT! Ever since I was in 8th grade, I've been very careful NOT to drink after anyone or in any way cause another ridiculously, awful viral infection. (Maybe it was #MiniTour, it took a lot out of me).

I'm not one to get sick often, but when I do it's absolutely horrible. And here is my point proven. Sharayah has Strep Throat, well, MAYBE...

Regardless, there is something wrong with me.

Thoughts from a mind

Lately, I have not been feeling like my creative juices are flowing properly, and this of course frustrates me. This blog is a way for me to hopefully spill my creative juices out upon these pages freely with no worry about whether I have missed my deadline or not.

I've been thinking a lot about the things I want my life to become, but these have become more thoughts rather than actions. I feel like I'm trapped in a box in which there is no way for me to break free. Which is unfortunate, because being the creative person I want to be makes it even more frustrating.

I do not know to shake these feelings. I think it may be due to the fact that I'm barely taking any major classes this semester. Which definitely takes a toll on my creativity because these GenEd classes are not sufficient to appeasing my normal outlets. Not to mention all my responsibilities to school, the newspaper, PR Club and choir. They block the entrances to the time I used to whittle away empty lapses of time with creative thoughts, ideas and stories.

How do I get the time back?